May 2012
363 posts
Recovery is honorable
redefiningolivia:
Don’t let your mind tell you the girls who are in and out of hospitals or purposely keeping themselves sick are “strong” or “lucky”. Even though the world doesn’t remind us enough.. Pushing yourself and eating the meal plan, blocking symptoms, talking about the real issues.. That is true strength. You’ll be rewarded. It’s worth it, I promise.
“When I hear a man proclaiming himself as an ‘average, honest, open fellow’, I...”
– F. Scott Fitzgerald, The Rich Boy (via honeyforthehomeless)
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“Because secrets do not increase in value if kept in a gore-ian lockbox, because...”
– Dave Eggers, A Heartbreaking Work of Staggering Genius (via fleetingmomentsintime)
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“Nobody can save you but yourself — And you’re worth saving. It’s a war not...”
– Charles Bukowski (via mentaljig)
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"Perfect" Recovery
I am speaking tomorrow at an NA campout and I’m kind of nervous. Not because it’s my second time - I was in theater for many years and love sharing my story. I know it will all be friendly faces, most of whom I know from the previous year. However, the last time I spoke, I started going to more meetings in the weeks leading up, calling my sponsor more, etc. Because I was scared of...
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Recovery Challenge // Day Seventeen
Day 17 - What in your life has improved since you entered recovery?
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Well, everything. My relationship with my family has improved a lot. I feel that I am more honest, more aware of other people, more motivated to continuously become a good person. I have a relationship with someone I love and try to stay open, honest, and caring about him. I care about my body and my health. I am more...
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Recovery Challenge // Day 16
Day 16 - List 5 things you are grateful for.
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“…a lot of the time, so-called gratitude is just a jaunty hat thrown over the ugly face of smugness. Let’s get real—I’m smug as fuck, so I’m pretty good at spotting it in other people. But I don’t pretend it’s gratitude. I don’t feel “grateful” for my sobriety. I’m grateful that my parents were supportive of my recovery and could afford...
“Constantly worrying about your reflection and criticizing your body, shape and...”
– Emma Thompson (via mwanzotena)
Don't wait until you've reached a goal to be proud...
“Self-loathing is not a fucking character-builder. It doesn’t make you stronger....”
– (via givemesomething2believe, lipsbetweenthehips)
Wicked Clothes: Target has pledged $120,000 in... →
archer-and-anders:
Just saw this in an email from one of my professors who is an adviser for the Lesbian and Gay Vet Med Association at school. Target’s website says it will donate 100% of T-shirt sales from customers during the month of June to Family Equality Council.
See the t-shirts here.
The big thing about it though is that this has been going around anti-gay organizations, and they’re...
stickin' it to the man
mood: so angry/depressed/anxious/triggered
me: I want to self-injure
me: I want to use disordered eating behaviors
me: I want to abuse substances
me: I want to quit this recovery bullshit right now
me: ...
me: ...
me: ...
me: FINE MAYBE I'LL JUST SIT HERE AND FEEL MY FUCKING FEELINGS
world: *crickets*
me: YEAH HOW DO YOU LIKE ME NOW BITCH
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“We all carry within us places of exile, our crimes, our ravages. Our task is not...”
– Albert Camus (via vanished)
it’s 2012 and there’s still no cure for feelings wtf are scientists doing
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Eating disorders either kill you or you kill them.
freedom-is-worth-it:
The choice is yours.
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“Your sickness is within you, but you do not perceive it. Your remedy is within...”
– Imam ‘Ali (Karam Allah wajhu)
givemesomething2believe asked: and that I have to just let time take its course. Time heals all wounds. And those that maybe you have hurt, or just maybe even dissapointed, just like us addicts have to get better on our own time and terms, they will forgive you and learn to trust you again on their own time, soon enough. In the meantime, its just one day at a time, and worry about your own sobriety. Everyones rooting for...
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12:09 PM
Today I am so mad at addiction. [[MORE]]The disease. I want to be mad at someone who is in the depths of active addiction, someone who helped lead me down years ago, someone who I pulled down for personal benefit in my last couple months of using. I feel so angry because I found out today that basically he is using again and it’s bad. I thought he had either cleaned up or kept it...
thebonepalaceballet:
I can’t do this
but i’m doing it anyway
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2:37 AM
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Remember when we watched Goosebumps
for three days straight.
Remember when we weren’t scared of nothing.
Not even death.
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12:35 AM
Safety
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I lock my doors at night.
It’s a quiet rural town;
It took me a month
to get used to the silence
when lying in bed at night
after I first moved here.
Sometimes you can hear the trains
crying in the distance.
There are no cicadas here
like in my hometown.
The air is empty, waiting,
but nothing ever comes.
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I still lock my doors though.
Not for safety but for...
Sticks and Stones: Let's face it... →
color-me-fragile:
The number really always could be lower. You never really want to start recovery. You’ll never really believe you’re “sick enough”. You’ll never ever really be satisfied.
There is no light at the end of this.
You will not be freed by a number… You will not be freed by a clothing size…
“I believed that I wanted to be a poet, but deep down I just wanted to be a poem”
– Jaime Gil de Bieda (via breathemystardust)